December 2015 – On the present moment

It was the last Contact Improvisation class/assessment/session. Well, at least here, at Lincoln university. I guess majority of girls felt quite sad about it… We did really like this module! In my opinion, C.I. works absolutely different in comparison to our other modules. For instance, you can predict what is going to happen in technique classes or what kind of class structure we will have. I am not saying that is bad, it is just that personally, I found C.I. and jam practices much more relaxing and kind of flexible, because it helps to develop both technique and creativity skills at the same time. Of course, I had plenty of days when I was struggling to make a solid contact with another person, or sometimes I felt bored by myself, but I hope as soon as I can notice all those things, it means that there is a progression. Anyway, I wish we had contact and jam classes all year round for all three years… Continue reading “Week 10: The End”

I have never felt so anxious in Contact Improv before as I did today. I think it was one of those days when anything just does not feel right and it is difficult to find contact points with other person,. Although, this time, I barely could find connection even with myself… Of course, I was trying to question myself why? who has effected me that much? why did in technique class I was quite fine and now I do not know what is going on with my?, however nothing came up, apart that it might be the effect of the full moon. Anyways, I did find something interesting… First of all, I was comparing my experience from the Saturdays workshop and today’s class. In the actual workshop I felt much more confident than I usually do in a class. Also, there I had an opportunity to contact with people I have never contacted before, and surprisingly ,it did not feel awkward at all (which I thought would be). So, after that Saturday’s trip, I felt so inspired and positive about me dancing in the space because I really thought it helped me to find and improve my own ways of moving, but I guess I was wrong. Of course, I should not be that negative about myself, but I just could not understand why I cannot free myself while dancing in the class. Usually I feel so limited and fruitless, sometimes even scared to contact with others or move by my own. Here, I was thinking whether the room might be an issue, because when I am in the studio 3, I am always thinking that I am assessed, marked, judged, etc. Saying that, I am sure this is not true, but now I am more stressed and cautious, which would definitely not help to show ‘my best’… Continue reading “Week 9: Scores”